Friday, September 9, 2011

A Whole New World

We love waiting with Nicolas and Samantha for their bus!

We're ready!

We love going to school together!

I will take care of my sister!

Look mom and dad, we are already hard at work! Aren't you proud of me?

So the pictures don't lie. All those smiles show two little girls having a great time in their new school. There were no tears from either of them. The teacher just said that Gabriella was a bit clingy. "Clingy" is Gabriella and we anticipated full melt downs so she is adjusting just fine. Me, however..........

I am having a VERY difficult time adjusting to letting Mia go. I don't know if it is just a culmination of the past three years or anxiety over letting her go. Even Dave said it's the fear that she has left her "bubble". Daystar is SO different than school. School is like the "real" world and that is scary to me. I know everyone says she is ready and I know she is BUT I just know things aren't going to be easy for her and I want to shelter her from it. I remind myself that she is tough, tougher than me, and I believe she was born with wings!

The other piece is those girls have been my "job" for the past three years. I gave up a career for them, in particular Mia who needed so much (of course, I would not have it any other way!) but now I have to face MY reality! What do I do now? I am still substituting part time but that is not my ideal situation. Am I ready to go back teaching full time? Find something new? Etc.

Like everything, this too shall pass and my life will find it's new "normal" again and Mia will soar. Until then, I will keep lots of kleenex by my side, skip the mascara and count my blessings. These are all good problems to have. LIFE IS GOOD!