As a small business owner during a horrible recession, Dave is struggling. We have tried to make do but the time has come for me to help. I will be starting a part time job in another week. My stomach is in knots and I have immense anxiety about leaving Mia. I hated leaving all my kids when I returned to work but this is even harder. I can't explain it and maybe I don't have to.
She has come so far and I just fear life will become too crazy to give her what she needs. We will be giving up her Early Intervention class at Mary Cariola, which has been so good for her, story time and together time! The girls will be seperated even more and even before the whole school thing!
Will I be out of touch with her therapies? Who will take her to her appointments? Who will monitor her eyes, her shakey right hand, her funny bump on the back of her head? How can I leave her when she is so close to walking? The list goes on. She has been my job. Her and her brother and sisters.
The problem is I have a difficult time not being in charge. I don't want anyone else to do those things for her. I am selfish and a bit of a control freak! I am very blessed to have wonderful friends and family who will help us figure all of this out. Most importantly, we have Daystar!!!! I breathe easier when she is there and I know they will monitor her and take such good care of her. They will practice her walking, read her books, sing her songs and love her. I cannot say enough about how absolutely wonderful they are there! What more can I ask for?
For now I will take it day by day and things will work out, they always do....maybe not how I planned them....but they do.