Saturday, November 29, 2008

Bitter-Sweet

Today was a big day! It was the first day I was able to hold Mia. Only one of us was able to hold her so Dave told me to go ahead. I just cried and cried! She has made it!!! I just held her in my arms and told her how sorry I was for all her pain. All she has endured already. I just want to fix everything for her. I would tell her that everything is going to be okay but I am still so scared myself! Today we were able to take Mia's twin sister Gabriella home. It is just heart wrenching to leave her behind. We are so grateful that Gabriella is healthy and home with us but it saddened us to drive home with an empty car seat and welcome home only one of our precious little girls. We know she is in good hands but it is hard to see her lying there, hooked up to all the i.v.s not knowing when she will be home with us. No matter how prepared we were for this day, we were never fully prepared!